Day Twelve

Day 12 – What’s in your bag 

Oh... Some folders, a PET bottle, a novel, my History book, my two books to write in, an exercise book. Then, of course, my pencil case, my triangle for geometry, my calculator, several small batteries for my mp3-player and my novel which I need to read for English classes ("Brave New World", in case you're interested. Somewhat interesting book after the first capter).

So, overall, nothing very interesting, just my regular schoolbag -and since I'm neither a girl nor depressive there won't be any pills, knives to cut open my wrists, tampons or any stuff like that. :P

Day Eleven

Day 11 – Your favorite book

Well, that'd be the Bartimaeus-Trilogy. It's very funny, has an interesting story and interesting characters, especially the two main characters. Both of them are somewhat anti-heroic but at the same time extremely sympathetic. 

Day Ten

Day 10 – What you wore today 

Black sweater, Bluejeans, my watch, black boxers, grey socks with blue and red line and my brown leather shoes.

First Day of School

 ... after Fall Break, that is. I couldn't really sleep last night, not because I was excited, but more like because my body couldn't adapt to going to bed not at 3AM, but 11PM. ;_; So I was tired as hell this morning after I slept for just three ours alltogether -and not in one piece, that's the worst- and barely managed to get up. Worst of all is I didn't get back my Math exam even though my teacher had such a long time to correct them. >_< He, though, read out some of the marks he already had, mine was among them, it's a B+. Dang it, could have been better, I still need to adapt to the style of writing of the topic vectors...

Aside from that it was very good to see some of my buddies again. One of them I didn't see for three weeks -he went to Finland one week before Break really started, saying he fell ill xD- and so it was good to see him again, hearing what happened to him with his family in Finland. :)

Well, overall it has been a regular first day after Fall Break, no teacher really said anything about the Break and so school started immediately. Now I need to do my Biology homeworks which I should have done over the holiday~ :D 

Day Nine

Day 09 – Your beliefs 

I believe that humans are stupid and evil by nature.

I believe only those who can laugh about themselves have true humor.

I believe that it's sometimes important to simply not say anything.

I believe that people who can't be convinced that their standpoint is wrong are morons.

I believe that respect is very important.

I believe that a little shyness paired with an open mind is a very good attitude to have.

I believe in old morals.

I believe that a person without much academic knowledge who knows he/she is such a person and deals with it is very wise.

I believe that there is evidence for and against the God of Christianity.

I believe that the marks in school are gravely overrated.

I believe that humans without any sense of responsibility are worse than filth. 

I believe that I'm superior to you. :3

Day Seven / Day Eight

Day 07 – Your best friend / Day 08 – A moment 

My best friend is without any doubt Jonathan. We've known each other for ages, we've gone thorugh many funny and many hard times and had fun all the time. He's even more crazy than I am, even though I'm much meaner than he is (and more grown up, that's fair to say :P ). He's the only friend I kept after I moved three times, so I can really say that the bond between us is strong, and I like him as much as I can without being gay. :)

I heard my Mum driving away, look out of the window -and see one of our cats getting overrun by a car. It's still alive, my Mum jumps out of the car, trying to stop other cars on the street from coming. But they can't read her signals, and two other cars overrun our cat, right in front of the eyes of my Mother and me. This event didn't even take 10 seconds to happen.

Day Six

Day 06 – Your day 

Well, my usual day is getting up, going to school -either with a buddy who has a car or by bus- having a lazy time in school, coming home with the same buddy or another bus, doing homework, gaming, phoning with Jona, eating, reading, listening to music most of the time, then going to bed at 11PM.

When I do not have school I get up, do some things for my Mum, game, read, phone with Jona, do even more things for my Mum, game, eat, game, listen to music mostly, anywhen I'll go to sleep.

So yeah, mostly may days are pretty boring. :D Sometimes I meet with friends. Today, after I got up, ate breakfast, gamed a little and did some things for my Mum I went to Leo. He showed me some new games and series, then we drove to his girlfriend to get her. After we were back at his we searched like half an hour for his Assassin's Creed II disc, after which he brought me home. I changed clothes, went to work, worked, came home, ate a little and now I'm sitting in front of my PC.

Day Five

Day 05 – Your definition of love 

I hate this. I seriously hate this. And I always hated it. And I will most likely always hate this. Don't mean love, no, by the Gods! I hate this annoying task to define love. The moment you give a clear definition of something you imprison it in this very definition, you immobilize it and make it unflexible. And this is horrible when it comes to love, since love ist plainly undefinable, it can come at you when you least expect it towards a person you'd never expect it to come. Sure, at least one thing belongs to love which is undeniable and that is the desire to be at the side of the person to love. The rest is up to the love you feel, because every feeling of love is different, even when coming from the same person.

Day Four

Day 04 – What you ate today 

One toast with smoked pork pate, one with liverwurst, one with hazelnut cream and one with cheese (yay, unhealthy breakfast xD). Then a piece of bread with hazelnut cream and 50g chocolate.

Day Three

Day 03 – Your favorite song 

Damn, that's hard. I really like a lot of songs and some of them are all fit to be Number 1. So I simply enlist them.

Metallica - Ride The Lightning

Metallica - Master Of Puppets

Three Days Grace - Never Too Late 

Three Days Grace - The Good Life

Sum41 - There's No Solution

Sum41 - Fat Lip

Breaking Benjamin - Away 

Breaking Benjamin - Polyamorous

Raunchy - I Get What I See

Rammstein - Spring

Rammstein - Halt

Trivium - Like Light To Flies

Shinedown - Diamond Eyes (Boom-Lay Boom-Lay Boom)

I really can't pick my one favorite song from them. ^^;

Day Two

Day 02 – Your first love 

 My first real love was a girl from Stutgart, 450km away from my place. ^^; Her name is Tina and she eventually became my first and -until now- only girlfriend. Even thogh I at first hesitated to go into a LDR I never really had any regrets. In the 1 1/2 years we were a couple we saw each other for only one month alltogether since we both of course still had to go to school and we do not have the same dates for vacations in Germany (there are 16 so-called Bundeslaender and each Bundesland has other dates for vacations. Which is a truckload of crap). After we broke up we very fast lost contact, which I think is a little pity.

Day One

Day One: Introduce yourself 

Name's Pascal Lange. Right now I'm a student in ym last year of comprehensive school and will leave school next summer with my Abitur (don't know the English equivalent...). I love writing, reading and gaming very much, especially the first. I try to become a professional author later on, but I'm still in my training phase (right now I stick to short stories only to improve my skills). I don't really know when I started writing that much, it just turned into my passion some day or the other. I can find pleasure in many things, but only writing is utmost enjoyable to me. I like to read and write fantasy and horror the most, but am open to all kind of things (still, I want to specialize in writing horror and fantasy and don't want to be a Jack of all trades and master of none).

Another thing I find very funny is other people suffering. I'm pretty sadistic and macabre and laught at pictures where you can see people in pain. This, though, doesn't count for every person, only for those I know are fictional or those who totally don't matter to me in any way. When I see one of the persons close to me in pain I wish to cease this pain (this is, of course, as long as it is not tooo grave :3). Still, I like to tease my friends with sarcasm and cynism, which turned out to be kind of a trial; Who can't stand me as I am -mean, cynical, narcissistic and sadistic- isn't worth of becoming friends with me. So the number of my friends is small, but I'd give my life for all of them.

I, though, am not as antisocial as it may seem. I like hanging out with friends or buddies in my free time. I especially like to share random and crazy thoughts and actions with them as I can only act as strange and random as I am towards my friends (my behaviour towards strangers is kinda cold). I'm somewhat shy nevertheless since I've been rather introverted until one or two years ago.

Neither do I smoke nor do I drink, in fact I detest the taste and effects of both things. My favorite subjects at school are Math and English and History, I also like German. I gravely dislike Biology and PE.

30 Days

Day 01 – Introduce yourself
Day 02 – Your first love
Day 03 – Your favorite song
Day 04 – What you ate today
Day 05 – Your definition of love
Day 06 – Your day
Day 07 – Your best friend
Day 08 – A moment
Day 09 – Your beliefs
Day 10 – What you wore today
Day 11 – Your favorite book
Day 12 – What’s in your bag
Day 13 – This week
Day 14 – A childhood picture
Day 15 – Your dreams
Day 16 – Your last kiss
Day 17 – Your favorite memory
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
Day 19 – Something you regret
Day 20 – This month
Day 21 – Your favorite movie
Day 22 – Something that upsets you
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
Day 25 – A first
Day 26 – Your fears
Day 27 – Your favorite place
Day 28 – Something that you miss
Day 29 – Your aspirations
Day 30 – One last moment

Day Ten

Day Ten: One Confession 

The only thing which stops me from killing you is to imagine killing you.

Day Nine

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now. 

1.: :>

2.: B)

YES!

Sorry it took me so long to upload a new blog! I just got my new PC system this Wednesday and I just had to install it and prepare it for gaming. :D This took me quite long as I do not not the password to our WLAN network so I had to wait until yesterday where my father told it to me.

Aside from that, I'm really positively impressed by my new system, not because I can finally play games which are younger than 10 years old -something that was practically impossible with my old system. >.> It's also good because my old system was infected with so many small viruses I was really wondered why I've even been able to boot it... But, well, it still serves me a purpose as a data storage system and my friends can use it when they come over without their own PC. Then they can play with my old system which makes 2-man-LAN-parties much easier. :D

Day Eight

Day Eight: Three turn ons. 

1.: (A lot of) Weird humor.

2.: Mental strenght, intelligence and the ability to not be suffocated/insulted by my comments and actings.

3.: A beautiful face, especially a nice eye colour (blue, green or a mix are best!). 

Day Seven

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

1.: Inadequate arrogance and cockiness.

2.: Too much make-up. I've so far met only a handful of women who are able to handle make-up...

3.: Finding fun in being too loud in e.g. the town, it's then even worse when telling vulgar jokes on full blast.

 4.: Being a wannabe-whore who wants to sleep with every guy around.

There are more, but I think those are the most important. 

Day Six

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) 

1.: Jonathan

2.: Sebastian

3.: Leo

4.: Tobias

5.: Katja

And if you're not enlisted here, do not worry; It doesn't necessarily mean you do not mean a lot to me, there are by far more than 5 people who mean a lot to me -and everyone who is dear to me knows this without being enlisted here. :) 

Day Five

Day Five: Six thing you wish you'd never done. 

1.: Trusting you.

2.: Let myself getting pushed around for so long.

3.: Lie to myself about my feelings for you.

4.: Not defending myself there.

5.: Lose contact with you.

6.: Not going to the beach.

But I'm nevertheless glad I did those things. After all, I wouldn't be the person I am now when I would've done any  of those things -and since I like myself as I am right now very much, I would gladly decline the offer to travel back in time to do those things. :)

Day Four

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot. 

1.: Die already!

2.: How can someone be so stupid?

3.: WHAT THE FUCK!?

4.: Calm down, brat.

5.: Overall phantasies where a lot of people die with a lot of pain and a lot of screams. :3

6.: No, your vulgar jokes are NOT funny, cretin.

7.: My friends are SO RAAANDOMMM! 

German exam FAIL and Autumn Vacation

I think there's nothing else to say for the first thing. I wrote my German exam today, it was a serious fail since our teacher didn't really prepare us for the exam as always and I'm optimistic when I say I'll get a B, I think.

But then... AUTUMN VACATION IS STARTING TODAY! WOOHOO!

*ahem*

Yes...

Well, this means a lot of free time to my I want to spend with my friends, this means long nights for me and, I hope, long sleeps. I didn't get any homework to do over the vacation so I'm totally free (except for working every Tuesday and Friday night, but pft) and I intend to fill this free time up with my friends and my new PC I, hopefully, get at Wednesday. :D

Day Three

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

1.: Be humorous and able to laugh about yourself.

2.: Be respectful to superiors, but act relaxed nevertheless.

3.: Don't act wimpy or slimy towards me. Don't be pushed by me, at least be on half the level as me.

4.: Be intelligent, or at least accept that you are not. Don't get depressed when you can't do or achieve something the first time, try it more often. If you still can't do or achieve it, accept it, nobody is perfect. Also, being a cocky brat to create the illusion you are eloquent and intelligent makes me puke.

5.: Surprise me. Everything is okay, sudden dates or calls at night, random words in any way, everything is fine.

6.: It's good to be random and strange, but when it's time for it, be calm and patient and listen to me. Nevertheless, do not pity me, understand me. Being common from time to time is also very good, always acting strange is not.

7.: Of course it feels good to receive big and expensive presents, but it's the small things that count. A little hug or kiss or key ring or anything small from time to time is much more worth in my eyes than one big thing twice a year.

8.: Be yourself. This phrase might be overused nowadays, but it's true nevertheless. It's okay to have little secrets, though, since everyone has them, even I do. I still also want to have the feeling I can trust you, since you can absolutely trust me. So, essentially, be yourself and be trustworthy.

Yeah, I know I sometimes put more than one thing into one point, so I put similar things into one point. But it's impossible for me to only name eight things. I'm very hard to impress after all. :D

And tomorrow...

... my German exam. And tomorrow, I think, I will really suffer. Usually I like German classes, but the teacher who educates me right now is really incompetent. I mean, I'm in a Basic Course, and we are working hardes than some Advanced Courses. I mean, I didn't pick Math and English Advanced Courses and not German Advanced Course for naught! >:( And the topic right now sucks since we have to learn soo many useless crap we won't need ever again.

Okay, that's what goes for most of the time for things you learn in the Oberstufe (something similar to High School), but that thing right now in German is absolutely and totally useless and only wastes space in my precious and superior brain. Origin of language... Who cares?

Day Two

Day Two: Nine things about yourself:

1.: I'm a hard to impress, sadistic, cynical narcissist who dislikes being pitied.

2.: "Hard Shell, Soft Core" doesn't count for me, but I can nevertheless be very kind when you give me reason and can also be romantic.

3.: I try to always tell the truth since it's much more powerful than lies in my opinion.

4.: I only consider those my friends who I'd give up my life for.

5.: My crazy mind often leads me to say strange things whilst at the same time my eloquence makes them seem less random.

6.: I detest cigarettes and dislike alcohol.

7.: I'm very good at Math, English and German. I suck at PE and Geography (or orientation overall (I'm lucky to not have Geography-classes)).

8.: I like just sitting there, looking into nowhere and let my phantasy wander around in places I can't describe when returning to reality.

9.: I love autumn and the sunset/sunrise.

Day One

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1.: Even though we sometimes aren't able to talk about intelligent things, you were, are and will always be my best friend.

2.: I thank you for always be the first one reading my stories and for sticking with me even when I'm really annoying from time to time.

3.: I seriously doubt there's anyone I'd like to kill as much as you.

4.: Believe me; I'll move to your place. Somewhen. ^^;

5.: Even though I thought of you as dragonic in the past, you're my mother -and I thank you for being that harsh to me in the past so I could grow up to be a formidable adult.

6.: You're not half as intelligent as you think you are. Calm down.

7.: Stupid whore, the wold would be better if you'd just shut up.

8.: It's always refreshing to hear you cursing our grade. It's so much fun around you!

9.: Open your eyes, this world is rotten on the inside more than you can and want to see.

10.: Even though you're really far away from me I really like you and hope to be able to see you in person anywhen. Stick to your dreams!

Damn, it's hard to pick... 

I did it!

I wrote my math exam today and I have to say; Maaan, it was pretty easy! I mean, there were some tasks where we had to think around one or two corners, but overall it was pretty easy! Our math teacher was a nice person again and mostly chose basic tasks, so even though we had to do 9 tasks in 200 minutes it was easy to do! One of my friends finished a whole hour before we had to put the exam on our teacher's desk. I, somewhat, envy him for that. xD But well, on the other hand he had to go to Physics then whilst I still took my time and finished the last two tasks so I didn't have to go to this annoying class. :3

I'm not too sure, but I think that despite my first thoughts this math exam might as well turn out to be an A-! Well, I nevertheless have to stick with habits. B)

Ten Days

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession

Math exam

So, let me put it bluntly.

I'm. So. Damn. Doomed.

I'm going to write my first math exam of the new year and it's going to be a total disaster. You see, I usually am really good at math, but this topic simply sucks (Vectors, to be precisely). I'm soo glad when it will be over, but since I'm writing like 200 minutes it won't be over so fast.

Geeze, I really don't want to.

But to see the good things here; After this there won't be any difficult exams for this exam-phase. Just German, Biology and History, whilst the latter is and will always be easy pie for me. B)